When we first met, the first thing I said to my future husband was : “You are standing in my way”. Back then I did not realize the impact of those few words on my future life.
I remember, not so long ago, I needed to shop at least once a week, for this new pair of shoes or that new dress I saw in Elle Magazine. I needed it all and I needed it right away. I had a strong urge to possess all these things and really believed they would help me feel happier.
This morning I got up with a strange feeling. I felt I had lost my balance, my stability, my strength, my inner peace and maybe my north star. All I wanted was doing nothing, what this is essence of finding my balance again?
For years, I have gone to bed or gotten out of bed with this little voice ” my own little saboteur” in my head which was saying things like:
I told you: it will not work
I told you: you will fail!
I told you: no one will notice you!
Didn’t I tell you? You are not worthy!
So annoying right!! Continue reading “The positive impact of my saboteur”