Let’s phase it we all have experienced rejections, in some way or another. Myself I have experienced rejection in friendship, in relationships, at work. And regardless of the age, the phase I am, it still painful and it hurts. It makes me feel awful. Often the first thoughts I have after rejection is: why me, what have I done wrong, or this is so unfair. And yet is there another side of rejection?
It was a few days ago that I stumbled across this video of Sharon stone: Her Thank you speech for receiving the GQ Men of Year 2019 – Woman of the Year. And I was really impressed by her speech, her words, her fierceness, the way she had transformed from being a joke to become women of the year 2019. Her famous moment I trust you have all still in mind, and if not I recommend you to watch Basic Instinct, a blockbuster out of the early 90, where Sharon Stone had to slowly cross her legs.
As long as I can remember Cows have always played a special role in my live. A long time ago, while we were still leaving at the house of my grandmother, all together with my cousin’s family, one dark afternoon in February, I came home from school and my cousin was there and frighten me with the cow mask she was wearing.
We are all born at a given point in time, with all our genes and in a certain environment, which may or may not highly impact our future life and what we become. Realizing this helps me to see who I am now, what has shaped me throughout the years and more specifically what I want to unlearn from my past to re become myself.
I have always wondered if I am in introvert? Or an extrovert? Or an introverted extrovert, or and extroverted introvert? Well what does that all mean anyway?
Going through the tough time I went through the question “why” often came to my mind. Why did this happen to me? Why did I have to experience all that pain?
These why questions are powerful questions, and for us it is difficult to figure out where they are taking us.
When we first met, the first thing I said to my future husband was : “You are standing in my way”. Back then I did not realize the impact of those few words on my future life.
The first thing I bought when I moved into my new flat was a beautiful Nespresso coffee machine, for which had I found a very prominent place and which quickly turned into a decoration object.
I remember, not so long ago, I needed to shop at least once a week, for this new pair of shoes or that new dress I saw in Elle Magazine. I needed it all and I needed it right away. I had a strong urge to possess all these things and really believed they would help me feel happier.
This morning I got up with a strange feeling. I felt I had lost my balance, my stability, my strength, my inner peace and maybe my north star. All I wanted was doing nothing, what this is essence of finding my balance again?