As long as I can remember Cows have always played a special role in my live. A long time ago, while we were still leaving at the house of my grandmother, all together with my cousin’s family, one dark afternoon in February, I came home from school and my cousin was there and frighten me with the cow mask she was wearing.
We are all born at a given point in time, with all our genes and in a certain environment, which may or may not highly impact our future life and what we become. Realizing this helps me to see who I am now, what has shaped me throughout the years and more specifically what I want to unlearn from my past to re become myself.
I have always wondered if I am in introvert? Or an extrovert? Or an introverted extrovert, or and extroverted introvert? Well what does that all mean anyway?
Going through the tough time I went through the question “why” often came to my mind. Why did this happen to me? Why did I have to experience all that pain?
These why questions are powerful questions, and for us it is difficult to figure out where they are taking us.
When we first met, the first thing I said to my future husband was : “You are standing in my way”. Back then I did not realize the impact of those few words on my future life.
The first thing I bought when I moved into my new flat was a beautiful Nespresso coffee machine, for which had I found a very prominent place and which quickly turned into a decoration object.
I remember, not so long ago, I needed to shop at least once a week, for this new pair of shoes or that new dress I saw in Elle Magazine. I needed it all and I needed it right away. I had a strong urge to possess all these things and really believed they would help me feel happier.
This morning I got up with a strange feeling. I felt I had lost my balance, my stability, my strength, my inner peace and maybe my north star. All I wanted was doing nothing, what this is essence of finding my balance again?
Good Morning every one!
Let me tell you about a recent experience and how Opening up during a lunch with one of my work colleague, opened up a whole new world to me. A world which encourages me to let go, surrender and be in the moment of deep and conscious sharing
For years, I have gone to bed or gotten out of bed with this little voice ” my own little saboteur” in my head which was saying things like:
I told you: it will not work
I told you: you will fail!
I told you: no one will notice you!
Didn’t I tell you? You are not worthy!
So annoying right!! Continue reading “The positive impact of my saboteur”